Ta-daa!!

Signing up was the first thing I did this morning. Thanks fireriven!

Forget what I said about the snow being a pain in the ass. Because of it, the department that I work in in the library was closed. Oh happy day!

I am a government assassin.

Today is my busiest day ever...class from 10 to 3 with a break at 12, then work from 3 to 5, then some sophomore meeting at 5 to help me find a job when I graduate.
I've got a skit to do in Japanese that I haven't practiced. ::sighs:: I'm so tired and I actually went to bed early (for me anyway) last night.

My birthday is in less than a month...the big 2-0. Scary.

"Ho, who is you playin' with?" Sheer poetry.

I just got done having a nice conversation with Adam. I really miss him, along with my other friends from home. I really ought to keep in touch with them...no reason not to.
Mmm...Andy's top ten is making me crave some ice cream...good thing I have some Ben & Jerry's Vanilla Heath Bar Crunch handy. But...alas...no eating utensil...::sniff::

I've got the feeling like I'm on the edge of an epiphany or something...and maybe if I sit down and just think, it'll happen. Or something.

Maybe it's just the gum talking....

What is it with me and feeling bad? Last night I was feeling sick, and today I have a massive stomachache...but I took some Pepto-Bismol, so it should be all right in a few.

It's over.

I've got a Greek myths tomorrow, but I haven't studied one single thing. Been having too much fun watching the shocked faces of people passing through the lounge as Real Sex is playing on the communal tv. Heh heh.

It's a dreary day here...perfect I guess for Valentine's Day. No valentine and a few things in my life are a bit messed up right now. Ah, hell, who am I trying to fool? Things are pretty fucked up between Deborah and me. I admit fault to some of it but I don't know if she's willing to take her share of blame, as if she ever really has. I haven't heard from her in about a week and what I did hear saddened me greatly. Friends are supposed to be people who will stick by you and talk to you and be there for you no matter what happens to you or what you do. And if they have a problem with any of that, then they should tell you instead of simply vanishing without a word. That hurts more than any words she could ever say. What kind of friend abandons you when you need them the most? A friend who isn't really a friend.
All this because of something I did--not to her, but to someone who I now consider much closer to myself than she is. I didn't even really do what I told her I was going to do, and yet still she shuns me. Of course I did do something else, which I feel bad for doing but don't regret, and I told Kevin that I did it. We were both hurt by it but we made it through better and stronger and because of what I did, he came to see me. I'd do it all over again just for that wonderful week that he gave me. Who knows when I would've ever seen him?
And still, she doesn't talk to me.
Not once have I ever ignored her or refused to be with her because of something that Deborah's done that I considered wrong. Those of you who know both of us know that.
I understand the need to think...but what is there to think about, really? You tell me.
This is my journal so of course I'm saying whatever the hell I want, but I've spoken nothing but the truth...as I see it and as I've been told.
Once again...happy valentine's day everyone.

Wish me luck. I have a stats test today, a psychology test tomorrow and a greek myths test on Friday. ::sighs:: College is fun except for when classes interfere.